last night's adventure

shaking
confusion
tears
heart racing
where is this coming from?
why am I being tormented?
what kind of sleep is this?
waking in the middle of the night to the panicked shouts of my husband.
even better? a husband who fears his wife to be a hypochondriac.


is it time for bed yet?

resolute

I'm a day late, but I thought I'd document my resolutions. I've heard that helps in keeping them, so here goes!

1. Read the Book of Mormon twice. I'm only halfway through with reading it for last year (FAIL) so I might just end up finishing this round and reading it again. The important thing to me is to at least finish it one full time. I've never done that and I really have no excuse.

2. Lose 10 pounds. In 2009, I was able to get down to 140 (from 160) and that means I'm 5 lbs away from being at my pre-married weight. This year, I think another 10 lbs is realistic and it would be great! Honestly, I don't have a "goal weight" .. I just want to get down to where I feel better about myself. I can't believe my mother was 105 when she was married! I could never be that small, but it doesn't hurt to just be healthy. Even if I don't lose those 10 lbs, I'd be happy to just be more physically active and feel good.

3. Read Harry Potter 1 & 2. I tried to read HP back in Jr. High and I just couldn't handle the fantasy. But now that I've had a chance to broaden my horizons, I think I'm up to the challenge. I've enjoyed the movies, so I hope I can do it!

4. Do 10 paintings. I took up the acrylics two years ago, painted a few times, and then they just faded into the background. I recently sat down and painted something that was really fun, and I think it would be great to do 10 of them this year! I've always wanted to have more hobbies, so this is one I want to work on.

5. Learn to round-brush my hair. I had my sister-in-law Heidi do this for me back in high school and I absolutely loved the end result. It's so pretty! I would love to be able to do that by myself..

6. Write in my journal at least once a week. When I was little, I wrote in my journal religiously everyday. Even though most of the time I had nothing to talk about, I wrote everyday. Since then, I've gotten too busy and I miss it! I'd like to eventually write everyday, but I think it's more realistic to at least write once a week, maybe every Sunday to catch up on the last week.

7. Go to church every week. I did it when I was growing up, so what's wrong with doing it now? It would be great for us, even if it's just me.

That's all I've got for now. Cody and I went snowmobiling with Jason and Kim today. Even though I am enormously sore, it was a success for sure. OH! We also bought the new Nikon D3000 and have been enjoying it's excellence. I feel so bad that I don't know how to use it to it's full potential yet, but my day will come. Thanks for reading, photos will be up eventually :)