waking up

Was it a dream?
You pinched me, but I still wonder as I lie awake in this empty bed.
My fingers entwined with yours, so effortlessly.
With the simplest touch, a roller-coaster of butterflies nearly forgotten.
Though hoped for, I never expected anything from you.
Left behind with the flowers you bought for your "friend".
Miles away but I can still hear your voice in my head.
Feel your caress on my neck and the ache to my core.
I can't sleep anymore.
I need to, but I don't want to forget.

know.

I don't know if he will ever have feelings for me again.
I don't know if our ship has passed.
I don't know if it would even work out.

All I know is that I have to try.
I can't ignore these ancient feelings.
And that I'm terrified.

Please.

"I'll be there waiting.."

I purchased my flight tickets for San Francisco tonight and so now I'm really getting excited! I've never flown before, so I'm sure I'll get nervous when it comes time to fly, but I can't let that hold me back! I've been feeling such a range of emotions as of late, but I've never been unsure about wanting to go on this trip. One of my very favorite people will be waiting at the airport for me, and I just couldn't be more happy about that. Especially now that the tickets are purchased, there's no looking back!

new place?

Since GoogleReader is shutting down in July, I've decided to give Bloglovin a try! What are the rest of you lovelies doing about this?!

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Next?

1. Lose 50 lbs

2. Run half marathon

3. Zumba!

4. Buy a laptop with Windows 8 (I'm scared of the new Windows!)

5. Visit Sean in San Fran

6. Visit Binny in Cedar

7. Boston/Salem, MA?

8. Travel more!

9. Take more photos

10. Get my spirituality back

11. School (see counselor)

12. Be alone and be ok with it!

13. Figure out who I am!

It's scary, but I'm amazing and I can do it.